I’ve written about half a dozen drafts and can’t seem to write anything that makes me feel excited. If you read my Quality vs. Quantity post, you’ll know that I want to write quality content but I just don’t know about what right now.
Usually when I find myself in a rut I spend the day watching tv, reading, or talking to friends and family. I’ve been doing these activities all day and still haven’t felt motivated enough to write a even somewhat compelling article.
A famous Hemingway quote I’m sure many of us have heard is, “write hard about what hurts.”
I wouldn’t say I’m necessarily hurting inside, but I have had quite a bit on my mind. Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about my future and it’s been a bit nerve-racking. I’m halfway done with college and I feel as though I need to decide what career I want to go into out of university. Will I go to grad school? Will I get a job straight out of college? Will my degree be useful? Will I go to some other type of professional school? I know I still have some time but these are just a few examples of all the questions that have been swimming around in my brain recently.
I’ve also been thinking a lot about what other people think of me these past two days. Even right now, as I’m typing this, I’m considering not publishing because I’ve wrote something similar before and people will probably not find it interesting. The main reason I started writing out my thoughts was to provide myself an outlet to express myself with. I didn’t start writing to try to impress others. With that being said, I am grateful for each and every one of you reading this – I just mean that I didn’t start writing for someone to read it.
I’ve also been getting into my insecurities which is never fun, however, I know I’m just in a weird funk and will snap out of this soon. Thankfully, all of my insecurities are something I’ve already been working on or can eventually change so I’m not too bummed out by this.
Idk. I’m sure everyone gets in this type of mood every once in a while. Just have to ride the wave of unmotivatedness out.
I love writing down when these waves come because then in the future I get to go back and see I moved on from whatever the issue was. I know I’ll get over this in a few days – maybe even tomorrow, but for right now I just had to write all of this out.
In other news:
-Miley’s new song makes me want to frolic on the beach with Liam Hemsworth
-I’m trying a “tropical matcha green tea latte” and not sure how I feel about it yet
-I’m almost done with the book I’m currently reading
-My mom and I started watching Drop Dead Diva together on Netflix and are obsessed
If you’re still reading this, what do you do when you get in one of these moods?
xx – k.s.